You're closer than you think.
Yesterday I had this thought, how sometimes you feel like you're miles from getting something to work and then BANG! You're there. It's done.
And you think, wow, I almost gave up before I got here! Good thing I didn't quit!
I think this should be my new mantra for the whole job thing.
Maybe it's not impossible. Maybe this is just the part where you're falling, and you think you're going to be smashed on the sidewalk but you're actually only an inch away.
Either way, hitting bottom would be better than free fall, I think.
I was also thinking about this because I've been watching some of my grad student friends and how they manage their priorities.
One does everything way in advance. She's always asking for help, but not before doing her homework and figuring out as much as she can on her own first. And she asks good questions.
Another has been procrastinating this week about her qualifying exam, all the while saying she's going to be destroyed by one of her committee members who always gives her a hard time. And yet, she's not asking for help.
A third sent me a thesis chapter to edit last week... the day before it was due to his committee. Two weeks before his defense.
I mean, come on. It's not like you didn't know you were going to have to write a thesis, let's see .... at least 5 years ago!
So while I'm watching the CNN headline "Bottom line of hopelessness", I'm thinking, yeah, I've been trying to plan ahead. I've been getting closer. I still feel like I'm a million miles away from where I want to be with my career.
But maybe I'm closer than I thought. Maybe a few more months, in the rear view mirror, won't seem like much at all?