No good news

I'm having one of those days, I spent the first several hours trying not to cry for no reason (hormones), and finally broke down when a friend came in to talk to me about science stuff. Of course I couldn't articulate what was wrong, since it's sort of everything and nothing, aka, the usual. Just too much frustration, or something.

Of course I always feel like an idiot when this happens. One good reason to consider going back on the pill, since it tends to damp out the moodswings.

So I'm seriously considering just going home. Not that I know what I would do there. But I think I'm too upset to work on anything important today. And apparently my office will be unusable tomorrow, for reasons I won't go into, which is okay since I have other things I could be doing. But I have been hoping since last week to set up some more experiments, after talking to a friend about some confusing results and finally feeling like I'm slowly narrowing down the possibilities of what I should be doing to sort things out. Sometimes I really wish I had the sort of job where I could just come in for a few hours and get something done, instead of having to plan several days in advance, get the cells ready, etc. and then be committed to doing the experiment that day or wasting all the material.

Honestly right now I feel like I could go home and sob for hours and just end up with a migraine. So I know it wouldn't help anything. But I have yet to find something that helps consistently when I feel this way. I hate being a girl.