Coming out ahead?
This morning I had one of those moments where I was first in line at a red light with a lot of other cars around me, and then the light turned green.
So I went.
Nobody else went. There was this weird long pause, like in slow motion, where I could see the heads of the other drivers turn to look at my car and then look at the light.
I could almost hear them thinking, "Where's she going? Oh, is it green?"
And I had that moment of doubt like, "Wait a minute, did I just go on a red light?" but I looked up and no, it was green.
I thought this was a nice little analogy for how I feel in science. To me, it's obvious where we should be going. So I'm going. Even if nobody is going with me yet.
But for my colleagues, there is this long delay where they always think I must be imagining things, because it takes them a while to catch up.
And it does cause a lot of self-doubt. When you're out there dangling on a limb by yourself, you sometimes have to wonder if you went the right way.
Today I got an email that basically said, "Hey, we didn't forget about you." Which is sometimes all I get.
Good thing it's all I really need.